Welcome to Hollywood (2014)

Where the freaks and geeks of the West collect themselves and arbitrate their indulgences. Bare legs forever, infinitely strung across the pavement- shining, glistening femme Fatales strutting their rumps.

Eternal vice is eminent and we see shining wagons and platinum chariots; the death of many a glamourous soul. Wide eyed and shut, tight vested, jackbooted pseudo thugs with black goatees carve holes in to the walls and unfortunate bimbos plead for their share of the pie. Future hooligans and desperate Wildes whizz by, out doors, through marble walls chasing fizzling dreams.

Top knot, man bun, artsy fart samurai jacks with glasses under dark ceilings pay you no mind, silly fat man dressed to impress flashes a permanent smile, “Have a good night sir!” “Have a good day!” even the children suck on dwindling lollipops, messy and beautiful with their tousled hair. And these hurried characters, all of them with their square portals masking their tensed faces. What happens this night? Smirks, lies, frustration, sugary turmoil; hunched over they stare with dead-redded eyes knowing that it will never end. Even though this is the end, my lonely friends.

And when the night cools a parade, not unlike a legion of ants tumbles across the concrete pavement and black rock risking collision with the freight trains of the street, already they have readied themselves for a most horrid death, weaving between the brown trunks and green topped promenade. Who knows for how long it will last. Certainly nature will cut down this jungle. Be it tsunami or earthquake or nuclear disaster. But until then, the show must go on- led by a translucent and muscled leader. 

Futbol

It’s a beautifully constructed game in which the marvelous invoke a compulsion to marvel, so glamorous the whirring dervish wisks and flicks, a mezmirizing matrix of swirls and swift forward thrusts and looping jabs, striking out as the gazelle does at the predators jaw, hack and gnaw and grind, in to the earths crust you merge and rise and tis a vortex of quick movements and passes, leading with the left leg, dart out right foot, swing, tuck, lead lead lead, left foot drags, threaten to whip with right, bring back with a casual glancing roll over of the studs on the top of the ball, strike out once more with the left foot, counterclockwise around the ball, the last infinite feint, and a silkily glide of the right foot along the outer left cusp of the ball and your in and its all happened in 0.08 seconds and felt like half an hour and swiftly you dart past the slow player trailing behind, an easy, nonchalant sort of dismissive jab again with the right and over the ball, and in an instant every bit of your destiny can be seen and the holy music of triumph erupts and colors turn vibrant and you see the pores on the skin of the keeper, dirtied with sweat and mud and heaving with ragged breath and you bring forward your leg in an elegant semi arc and the ball fly and dips, sinks majestically with half a sideways curve in to the net. It bulges and the cracking crowd roar about like utter savages. 

Purple Collar: Chapter 1

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      There was this slight sense of the exhaustion of all sanity, this vague separation from reality. Steady. Vague but steady. Thus, as the mosquito draws blood, so does the madness settle itself comfortably in my mind’s caverns.

And only in the earliest hours of the morning, when I’ve found myself stretched thin, do I see myself in the mirror that doesn't exist and hear the dreamy echoes of pretty girls perpetually of the broken heart party, drifting about the bed sheets.

Roll my head through the sheets and I hear the suffering of those girls. Unfortunate in that they were just short of beautiful and so untouched by the qualities of evil.

The room draws itself about me, demons sardonically glare (playing cards?), and the lights peeking in shines cold, denies me even sweat. And everything seems slowly to wrap around and then rapidly extend and pass in thin progressions, slowly, then suddenly, and shifting it collects about me and through me.

Images of great and vibrant intensity bubble forth. The future and the past. Dimensions upon dimensions.

And, driven mad, I’ve realized I’ve failed to involve myself in the young fury with which so many of my generation conduct themselves. Young fury rich with their debauchery, pretty faces allowed whole worlds of fancy.

Rich with their boldness, rich with their drunkardness, languid with their intoxicating sex, languid with their scantliy clad treasure troves, staring with muted hostility The flash making them glamorous in the lens under black and white, their hair tumbling every which way. Its here and there that I’ve failed. Haven’t been cruel enough or ruthless enough. Haven’t been rough enough.  

I’ve come to realize that it is my moral duty and obligation to pursue this young fury and exercise a new boldness. To be selfish in the pursuit of what shall surely be for the betterment of mine own health and spiritual well being.

Disdain for lust and sin be damned, if there is a god to be chosen I’ll take the side of that which manufactures pleasure.

In this spirit I shall move forward and in this vein I shall live.